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I wish things were different, I wish things could change. Once I heard while there's life there's hope. I just wish it wouldn't be this hard.. Not after such a long time. The truth is, it doesn't matter how long ago it happened, the pain is the same, the sadness is the same and the hope happens to change once in awhile.. Somedays we feel it stronger, on others it seems is going away. I wish things were easier. It's not that i'm complaining. I just think that we have been through enough but who didn't, right?! Everybody have problems, fears, worries and sad moments. Nobody has a perfect life. Even though, I still wish things could turn around for a better side. Maybe this is a test and it's not over yet. People say: "don't stop believing", "keep your head up".. I know they are right but it's so hard when you have to do this every single day! I wish I could be different and I know this just depends on me but I can't. It affects me more than I could ever imagine and I realized now. I wish I could be more compreensive, more patient but i'm not and I can't change. I know is much harder for her, is much more painfull for her and I just don't get it. Why can't I be more generous?! I should be all the time and not just sometimes. Maybe I've been frustated since always. Maybe I never accepted but i'm not the one who needs to do that. She needs more and she has been doing this for all this time so why can't I?! Forgiveness. I just wish for it. Maybe someday we will all wake up on a beautiful sunny morning and the things will be just different and our lives will change. Not like nothing ever happened but the opposite. We will remember everything we lived and we've been through and we will look to each other to say: "we lived and we learned". I hope this day won't take so long. I just know the day will come and we will reach what we've been asking for.
